Time has brought your heart to me

Time has brought your heart to me.
It was a long journey, but time brought you back to me.
I can't help but think what others may think.
But then I think of the love I have for you and what we have shared together.
I think of the times we have spent together.
The laughter we have shared together.
The endless conversations we have shared.
The sleepless nights we have shared.
All the things we have done together.
All the things we have been through together.
Time takes me back to day one when we crossed paths.
That smile, yes that smile.
I still remember it like it was yesterday.
In time of sorrow and pain your smile was what lifted me up.
From that moment I knew that things would be ok.
I knew that I would be able to pick myself up.
I knew that my disappointment from my choice, was my greatest joy yet to come.
Just from your smile I knew that things would be ok and come together.

Your smile brought light to my life again.

We took the first step towards forever happiness.
If only I could express to you how amazing that moment was I would.
But a feeling is hard to express sometimes.

As I sit here and day dream of the day and place where it all started it feels great.
It reminds me of why I chose you.
Why I decided to give you my heart.
It was hard, but I gave it to you.

Although we don't know the future we do know what we want in the end.
Even when the road was rocky I still loved you.
Even when you were lost I still loved you.
I have always loved you and will continue to love you.

You took a huge step towards getting closer to me.
I see your presence.
It is as bright as could be.
Take a few more.
I am waiting for you.
I can't wait much longer so hurry.

I'm glad that you took that huge step.
It brings smiles and happiness to my heart.
Let's see you take another step now.

We are closer than we were yesterday

Thinking of that moment when you picked up the phone and called me.
You called out my name.
I could hear the sorrow in your voice, when you called out my name.
silence prolonged on the line.
I did not know what to say.
I waited for you to say something.
To reach out and let me in.
Then you called out my name again.
Said how much you love me.
Said how much you cared for me.
Silence was all I could give.
I was lost of words.
Lost of thoughts.
Lost of what was happening.
Although I was far away I could feel it.
I could feel the tears running down your face.
I listened.
I did not want to believe.
I thought it was just words.
But I could not help but listen as my heart melted at what you had to say.
For the first time I felt it.
I felt your sorrow and disappointment.
You opened up and let me in.
I know it has been hard.
We both had a part to play.
Time has brought this moment to us.
Now we see and have spoke our words.
Now we are taking another step closer.
A step closer to each other

We took another step closer

We took another step.

We are closer to that spot than we were yesterday.

It seems like we still have a few more steps to take, but as time goes I know we will get there.

Others may not understand or see why.

They may ask WHY?

But my why will never be enough.

Then they will ask are you serious?

But even that will not be enough.

It will never be enough to anyone else, so I keep taking these steps towards getting closer to you each time.
I see your presence. I smell your fresh breath. I smell your cologne.  I feel your your arms wrapped around my body. I see your gorgeous smile. I could hear you whispering the words I love you to me. I see you looking deep in my eyes and I feel that love, that passionate love. I feel the touch of your hands on my face. I feel the grasp as you take my hand and tell me your thoughts. I feel that warmth as you kiss my neck.

I know you care.
I know you feel the same way I do.
It is time to take two steps closer and not one step  at a time.

For the way I feel about you is nothing compared to the love I have given out to anyone else. You have all the spots my heart holds and I want to fill them up with your love, only you.
I'm reaching my hands to you, lets go ahead and take that step.
One step closer.
Darling let's not be afraid.

One step closer

Sometimes love is a difficult thing to grasp onto.

Sometimes it is hard to open yourself to love when you feel like you have been hurt so many times.

Sometimes it is hard to let others in when all you can think of is the hurt you will face.

How can you love when you are afraid to fall.

These are questions we ask ourselves everyday when letting someone in.

I have been faced with these questions everyday of my life. Being fearful to open up and give myself fully instead of half way. I am able to love you but sometimes I am afraid of opening up to you. It seems so intense sometimes, so scary.

How can loving one person hurt so much. Why is that this love feels so good so right, but yet still I am so afraid to give it all.

It should not be this way. We are tied together for the rest of our lives.
How can I be brave?
How can I not be afraid to fall.
I am one step closer.
One step closer to just giving you all my love and showing you how much I love and care for you.
I will be brave.
I'll give you every breath, everything I am.

Time stands still when you are here with me. Nothing in this world matters when I am with you. All I can think of is you and that moment, that time we are together. Nothing seems to matter but what we have, what we share and that is love.
We stepped into this life together quickly. We gave it no thought at all. All we knew was that we loved each other and wanted to be together and share a life together with this unborn baby I was carrying.
We didn't know how hard it would be or how challenging things would be, but we did not care we went for it anyway.
Along the way we lost our way, we lost each other. We fell apart so quick. We shared tears, pain, hurt sorrow and so much more.
But my unborn baby kept bringing us back. She kept telling us to stop and remember. Then she came to this world and really helped us find our way back to each other. She brought us back.
The twinkle in her eyes. Her beautiful face. Her tiny hands and feet. Her wonderful presence. She brought the joy back and the memory of why we took that step inour life.
We are still one step closer, and as time goes we will arrive at the spot together.